small intricate things

the beautiful walks we took. the kisses we've shared.
the birthmarks i've pecked. the lips you've traced.

i dreamed of what i've lost and could never hold
you flew and wandered off

it was lovely and then things change
you stopped noticing things
and i am all about small intricate things

you wish for better
i never did
because you were good
and enough

the sheets we've stained. the legs i've stretched.

i miss your eyes your smiles your curly hair

you flew and wandered off
i've lost and could never hold

Soulmate-search

A friend of mine told me that if you can come up with 10 things you want from your future spouse, you should write it down on paper, and in three months you will find him.

I find this ridiculously hopeful.

Writing them done and waiting for three months is easy but listing ten things you truly want from someone will take me years.