Animal Yoga

My lower back is aching worst than ever. Prescribed painkillers does not help. I should make time for yoga. The doctor specifically said to practice the cats and dogs position. Well, I want it to rain heavily instead.

The need to please

It is almost like an obsession. To slowly change yourself to an idea. Something that symbolizes what is yearned or fought for. The desire to be loved and wanted. Is it worth it?

Is it worthy to become you. Because all you do is yourself. All you seek is only in your eyes. How shameful to not love anything else.

Sliver underneath. Could you handle it? Burn the iron and stick it in. No tears, no screams. You're stronger than this.

in january i died

met you too early, met you too late

maybe we should have dealt with our issues separately

you shouldn't have call

i shouldn't have rested my head on you

we chased the idea

and time consumes

we were tired with a heavy heart

matters have stumbled

and we fell

i know you want me around

where do you want to put me?

small intricate things

the beautiful walks we took. the kisses we've shared.
the birthmarks i've pecked. the lips you've traced.

i dreamed of what i've lost and could never hold
you flew and wandered off

it was lovely and then things change
you stopped noticing things
and i am all about small intricate things

you wish for better
i never did
because you were good
and enough

the sheets we've stained. the legs i've stretched.

i miss your eyes your smiles your curly hair

you flew and wandered off
i've lost and could never hold

Soulmate-search

A friend of mine told me that if you can come up with 10 things you want from your future spouse, you should write it down on paper, and in three months you will find him.

I find this ridiculously hopeful.

Writing them done and waiting for three months is easy but listing ten things you truly want from someone will take me years.

Baked Dreams

Brownies in the oven.
Charlie Fink's singing in the background.
Fan spinning.
I'm all packed for another journey.

Alhamdulillah.

Simply Sims

Look what I bought today! I've been playing The Sims since I was twelve (illegally) and I'm a huge fan. I recently started using a MacBook Pro and I have no choice but to splurge and buy the original game. Definitely worth the money. It also comes with US$10 worth of SimPoints to spend on the online Sims store. 

Level of happiness: 10.

To explain such exaggerated joy:

1. I'm going home tomorrow.

2. The Sims 3 just finished downloading.

3. Today marks the last lecture of my first year in university.

4. I'm gonna go play the Sims now.